This happened because of Sam Smith.
Until Sam, there was only one other person who could touch my soul as deeply and that was Glen Hansard. Yes, only musicians have this power over me.
It's hard to convey the force of this music on my soul. I'm not one to use the word "soul" and be serious about it; until we start talking music and then "soul" is the only word I know of that accurately describes the place in which I feel touched.
There are certain songs in which I want to crawl inside and make a cozy nest and just stay there forever. The emotion it evokes is so overwhelming, my body doesn't even know how to handle it. It's like wanting to cry, laugh, scream with joy, and hug someone all at one time. It's powerful and I LOVE it. It sends me to places of joy I can access through no other means. I become completely raptured.
Sam's album, "The Lonely Hour" hasn't even been released in full, but the songs that have been released I've fallen in love with one at a time. And just when I thought I would have to wait for more of these wondrous waves of passion to wash over me, I discovered Sam's acoustic version of "Latch."
I was painting my dining room and had all Sam's songs on shuffle. Having just rounded out my collection with songs from his EP "Nirvana" last night, I didn't know what gem awaited me in "Latch." I've had it on repeat for the last hour and it's not getting old.
When I heard part of the chorus, "...got you shackled in my embrace, I'm latching on to you..." I realized I knew those lyrics. But from where? After some thinking I realized Meryl and Maks danced their stunning and emotional freestyle dance to this song on the Dancing With The Stars Final this year. Sure, they didn't get to use the Sam Smith acoustic version, but it was still devastatingly beautiful.
Sam. HE'S devastating. His voice surfaces emotions in me that are buried deeply due to depression, unemployment, loneliness, self-doubt, and general unhappiness. I have no explanation for why but the break in the sadness is welcome and perhaps why I put these songs on repeat for days on end.
Now I've got you in my space, I won't let go of you
Got you shackled in my embrace, I'm latching on to you
Typing those lyrics does NOTHING to convey their impassioned weight.
Here. This should help.