Just how does life work, anyway?

I am usually inspired to post when something negative is on my mind. While that bothers me to some degree, I think that's when blogging most helps me - and probably others as well. I have no clue how many people read this, but I know there are people out there that don't know that I read their blogs, but sometimes their posts help me feel like alone or like I'm the only person in the world who has ever had certain thoughts or feelings. With that ... I post the following:

I'm in my 2nd week of the 2nd (and last) semester of the Paralegal program. Last semester was a bear, and this one will be too, but so far in just 2.5 classes, I'm starting to feel at home and like I made the right decision in choosing the Real Estate specialty. I love real estate and I hope I continue to enjoy, or at least be entertained by, the material I'm learning in the class. The teacher is enjoyable and loves the topic which greatly helps the presentation and thus our attention level.

My issue is with job hunting. The job I'm in will run out next January when the new Governor comes in (Lord knows I don't want to be around for ANOTHER term under anyone doing this job!). I've been looking for jobs on an off since the day I started here - which is quite sad. I go from being content to being desperate to leave and everything in the middle, but the fact is that you can't force a job on yourself. You've got to put yourself out there and let someone else decide if you're the best fit for their needs. That really sucks when you're just trying to escaped an unhealthy job situation that you're just not cut out to deal with.

So...in looking for jobs I realized I've either got to take low-level jobs or go back to school for additional education. I could never really say, "I'm a teacher," "I'm at dentist," "I'm a lawyer," and for me that made it hard to focus when job hunting. I've got a degree in Communication - so now what? It was depressing to think I spent 4 years in college and have nothing to show for it. So I chose the Paralegal program and thought, "When I'm done, I can say 'I'm a paralegal'" when asked what I did for a living. But recently, I was told my a classmate that the attorney she works for told her that most attorneys aren't interested in hiring a "newbie" because they don't have time to train them. They are looking for pros and people that can just slide in and get the job done. SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGH.

I hate that! It sucks that even as a certified professional it's STILL going to be hard to find that first opportunity. Grrr. And I'm having the hardest time find a good source and a list of real estate attorneys in the area. You'd think there'd be a list, but I haven't found it yet. I've just started cold-emailing firms my resume and cover letter so we'll see if I ever hear from them. I just feel exhausted from this and frustrated that I'll be 30 in March and don't feel like I have much to be proud of in my professional life. I'm sure many people feel your professional life isn't all that important, but it is to me. I'm spending 8+ hours a day doing something - I think I should be enjoying it, at least not being tortured by it. I spend more hours working per day that I am awake and not working.

Anyway, if you know any real estate attorneys let me know!


  1. internship or volunteer on the weekend.
    you have to get your foot in the door and that will take some initiative.

    "luck is what happens when preparedness meets opportunity"

  2. This post about your life is great!